Today I told Joe that I'm choosing to forgive him. It's not because he deserves it or even because he's asked for it, but because I don't want bitterness to become a part of me. This has been a hard week. I don't like the way I've been feeling when I'm around him. It's just been yucky. And so I choose forgiveness. Here's the thing. Holding on to hurts doesn't do anything to the other person. But it leaves this yuck in us that can turn into bitterness, and that's just not something I want in my life. It may be a daily choice that I have to make, and it doesn't mean that I won't get angry or hurt sometimes. What it does mean is that I will feel the anger or the hurt when they come, but then I'll let them go. I won't allow them to penetrate into my being or let them infect my spirit.
One thing is for certain. God is my peace. I don't know how anyone can get through things like this without Him.
"Bitterness is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die." (not sure where this originated.)
I choose peace. I choose hope. I choose joy.
Jenny, you are such a beautiful person....very inspiring!! I love you so much! xo
ReplyDeleteI love that quote, so true. I pray that you have grace and peace and gentleness as you walk this out! Miss you and love you dearly! Lovies,DJ
ReplyDeleteYES and amen. You are strong...
ReplyDeleteI admire you. I'm sure this experience will/has changed you, but I'm glad to know that you're releasing those yucky feelings, to make room for goodness. I agree, you are a beautiful person and so genuine and gentle.
ReplyDeleteSending lots of love,
Mati
hi jenny, pretty new to your blog. I am so sad to hear of the ugliness that has entered your world right now. i pray that your journey into forgiveness brings you peace. you are so right, it will be a journey to consciously give grace day after day. You are a beautiful person and an inspiring mother. I have enjoyed reading your words. You will be in my prayers for the Lord to bring you all the strength and joy you need in each day.
ReplyDeletePraying for you. Could be there in an hour if your regular support network breaks down. Love you lot's.
ReplyDeleteYay :) Forgiveness rocks. Still sending peace...
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